Today's session

This is part of what I took with me to my session today.

When it comes to the negative, I’m comfortable. It’s what I know – soccer, something I have actually excelled at, almost comes easy.

When it comes to the positive, I’m very uncomfortable. It’s what I don’t know - boxing. It’s something that I don’t understand because I don’t know the rules or any of the fundamentals.

I know that I’ve got to get in to the ring so I do it. I come out a bloody mess. I go back to training because I KNOW I have to do this to conquer the beast. I keep practicing the fundamentals, over and over, but still find myself in the corner getting beat to a pulp. It almost seems like there is more than one opponent in the ring with me. I’m totally outweighed.

I have to decide if I accept the beatings, retire, or find the beast as an almost comfortable sparing partner. I’m not willing to retire and the beatings have to stop one way or the other.

A part of me knows that eventually I’ll get a punch or two in on the beast but I am so tired. I need some success, even if it is only to hold my own for a full round before I get TKOd.

The “yeah but” generator is like the opponent. I understand that the positive affirmations would be me punching the opponent.




Why does it feel like I am totally resistant to accepting the positive? Like I am TKOing myself. It’s almost like I am putting myself in the ring knowing that I still don’t know the rules or any of the fundamentals.

Am I afraid I’ll never conquer the beast, failing, in the ring so I just go back to playing a game that I do know, success, soccer?

What is success and what is failure? Sometimes I do think I am afraid of success. I know I’m afraid of failure.



The greatest single cause of a poor self-image is the absence of unconditional love. Zig Ziglar

"Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth." –– Franklin D. Roosevelt

I’ve got to accept that the positives are not lies, they are facts, truths. Yeah but, yeah but, yeah but



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