Something important to me to follow up the "Thanks Nebbs!" post.

For those that struggle with trust, I totally understand that too. I made my own decision as I hope was understood in the "Thanks Nebbs!" post earlier. As many of you know by reading my blog and what I've shared here and around The Colony, I learned at an early age not to trust even those we should be able to trust as a matter of human nature.

Some of the hard work I've done in therapy and with people around me has included learning better who to choose to trust and who not to even take the risk with, and sometimes I am still wrong. When it comes to The Colony I have decided to take everyone at “face value” (pardon the pun) as I have felt safe to do so. That has been a big part of why I feel like you are a family to me.

My progress has also included the notion that it is ok to change my mind based on further information and/or listening to my gut. I used to be the kind of person (and still battle the concept) that once you are my friend it is necessary for me to always, without question, be a friend.

Despite my personal struggles I still believe in and want to think the best of people. While that has not always played out to be true I don’t want to change that in myself because of one experience. Fortunately, taking the risk here and in real life has meant more reward than disappointment.

If making the decision for yourself has meant ending this relationship with Nebby I understand (not that anyone has asked for or needs my permission), especially if that decision has to do with taking good care of *you*. I think you all know that is something I’ve promoted since I first joined The Colony, my belief that everyone should make the best decisions he/she can when it comes to taking care of self.

I intended my last blog to be the end of my input into this situation but upon further reflection I felt I needed to say more. I am choosing to look at this as another life experience, no matter how it all plays out, but think it is time for me to move on from the subject as I have way more important things going on in my life. (I hope that didn’t sound disrespectful. I just mean that I don’t want to use any more spoons on this.)